Losing Faith

Lately I find that I lose faith in people more and more every day. What happened to common courtesy? When I set a time to meet someone I'm usually there at least 10 minutes early. Then I end up waiting for the person. Sometimes even waiting a half hour. Is it that hard to send a quick text "Running late/stuck in traffic/slept in." Why is it ok to keep someone waiting? Is it because your time is more valuable than mine?

I try to put good things out in the universe, hoping they will come back to me. Not sure how long I'm going to have to wait. It always seems that I'm doing things to help friends, but then when I need help everyone is busy. When is it going to be my turn?

Do I need to become one of those assholes who only cares about themself? Cause they seem to get what they want when they want it.

Maybe nice guys do finish last. Speaking of which, in an extremely brave moment last night I told a good friend of mine how I feel about him. My feelings for him were just eating me up on the inside. Of course as I'm saying it I'm feeling like a complete ass and very uncomfortable. Turns out the feelings are not mutual. Surprise surprise! But he doesn't want to lose our friendship, and neither do I. Hopefully I didn't royally fuck this up.

I feel like I'm back at square one again...