Such a Cliche

I know I'm not the only one, which makes this ironic, but every year around the holidays I get kinda lonely. Well not kind of lonely. I get lonely. Even though I'm surrounded by family, I still wish I had a special someone to share things with.

For the past couple of months I've tried telling myself I don't need someone. That's not what I'm looking for. And while I am content being single, I still have these passing moments where I want someone. Someone to watch tv with. Someone to cook dinner for/with. Someone to cuddle with as I fall asleep.

What makes it harder is that I have long periods of time off from work. While working I'm incredibly busy, and then I can use the excuse that I don't have time for a relationship. Then I'm off for 5 weeks, and can't stop thinking about the fact that I've always been single except for 3 months 5 years ago.

Maybe the new year will bring some good changes. I feel like I need changes. They say when you stop looking that is when things happen. Or is that you stop looking because things have happened and you no longer have to look?